loving us as we are...

ps 139 vs 1 : "O lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me." {NLT}

*short story*

in primary school, i was the chubby girl with the geeky glassess{ glassess still there tho much more trendy- the weight? lets just say 'curves' LOL!!}; i remember then, my favorite book in the libary was about a chubby girl who had no friends, and who then lost weight and everyone wanted to be her friend!!

well i had friends; what i did not have was any boy crushing on me!!{when i was a child...*sigh*}. i was NOT the 'type' the boys were going for; and in so many ways it was shown.


then in primary 5 i met O.H, it is weird how i still remeber his surname,how he looked... or is it?
i remember him because; he had a crush on me... he liked me.

it was weird for me... No boy had 'liked me-liked me'; i remeber one day he was talking to me, and i think i actualy said 'are you talking to me?' that is how SHOCKED i was... there were finer girls {thank God fordeleiverance from such low self estem}.

finally i accepted O.H crush, and i experienced something i had believed i'd leave primry school without!!


sometimes we wonder what God is STILL doing with us; why does he STILL care about me, why does he STILL love me... after all i have said and done, does he not know it all, my wicked private thoughts, my flaws... does he not see them....

feeling undeserving of the love of God has its limit!! sometimes statan is just messing with our mind, telling us how undeserving we are... and in those times God takes NO delight in our seeming 'awe' of his love...


i told the story above becuse i believe in alot of ways it is kinda how we react to the fact that God loves us just as we are...

we are like "me? me? God loves ME??!"

he does, i was thinking of the fact that God CHOSE to love you and i; he purposely loves you, his love did not just happen, he pre-planned to love us...eph chapter one the verse 4 says God chose us in christ and loved us BEFORE the foundation of the world was made....

and everyday since after he made the foundation of the world he loves us STILL... as we are, as i am...

and it is his love for us that inspires us to be better people for him...

while we were yet sinners he died for us.

i think we should stop trying to figure out why he does love us and begin to accept it and thank him for it....

he knows EVERYTHING and he CHOOSES to STILL LOVE US!!

aint that just fantastic!!

his peace. chichi.