Thoughts in my head....

Life happens, and if you do not take note it passes you by really quickly. It is good to just sit in the moment or second and savour peace, joy, balance, silence, love, hope. I think we get over our good moments too quickly and we stay down lots longer. Life passes through us, it changes us affects us, influences us, breaks us and makes us but seldom do we pass through life. We live for our seleves and forget about the others, those who have not what we take for granted or deem as common. My level of grace won’t permit me to sit with a mentally unstable person because I have a sound mind but it will permit me to serve or make myself available in another form, perhaps cheer someone up who feels discouraged. Joy is about focusing on God, not things not people because things come and go, people come and go…. But my dear, God is always.

Life is something even movies do not communicate no matter how hard they try. Life is unexpected, it happens so fast. Good moments give way to the bad and the bad bows again to the good times. Like the sun and moon they switch, each serving its purpose in our lives, each showing us how great our God is as a helper and a deliverer. Jackie Kennedy Onasis said ‘life is a mixture of the good and bad, you can’t have one without the other.’ Dwell longer on moments of victories, consider the battles won in life before because good times will give way to the difficult times… but both seasons point us to our God.

His peace. My love

Chi chi

INTERLUDE

Interlude

"She stands on the shore awaiting her ship,
she has been stranded on this island for so long; it is time for a journey to continue but in a lot of ways begin.

She can hardly breathe as she sees her ship in sight, the end is near,she whispers to herself 'the end is near'

With a trembling heart and eager hands, with moist eyes and a multitude of emotions washing over her...

She watches as her ship gets closer, "It will be beautiful to begin again..."

Dear Daddy,

I am thinking of you today,
Missing you, feeling like I have been away.
There was a song this morning that brought tears to my eye, it was Kurt Carr’s ‘I Almost Let Go’
Every time I listen to that song something deep within me is affected because Lord, I know, and I know you know what we have been through, you know the truth that if not for you I won’t be here, ‘I’m here because of God’s mercy’ that was one of the lines in the song, and I know it to be true.
I am thinking of you today, missing you, feeling like I have been away,
Just want to remind you that I love you, and thank you for another day where I am reminded of just how significant you are to my life.

Love
Chichi

Faithfully

I remember a song now by a gospel group Katinas (hope i spelt that right) called Faithfully, as you guessed it is a song singing about God's faithfulness and how he shows up every time. I remember the song now as I have just finished reading Daniel chapter 6. for those who need their memories refreshed, it is the chapter where Daniel is thrown into the lions den because he prayed to God and not to the King as the decree had demanded. it is ironic how we get into trouble for doing the right things. how making the right decision can look like we made a colossal mistake, how saying the right thing turns you into public enemy. We have heard how the wrong things can get us into trouble, but dare I say even the right things do too.

God did not turn up when Daniel was reported to the King, God did not show up when Daniel was being dragged to the lions den. God did not show up when a stone was rolled over the den to prevent anyone from rescuing him (vs17). If I was Daniel I would be worried, I would wonder 'where is God? can't he see me again!!'
What am I saying, I do get that way with God. one disappointment after the other, one trial after the other, one pain after the other. and I wonder, where is God? can't he see me again? why am I going through all this if he loves me.

in Daniel's story, we don't get to read how the angel did shut the lions mouth. we don't get to see what happened but like the King we are elated to see that God came through!! God will go anywhere you are. Just as we don't see what happened with the angel and the lions, we don't always get to see what God is working on behind close doors. You don't know how close you are to receiving your miracle.

my mother said to me somedays ago 'things aren't always as they seem my dear.'

And I tell you the same thing, it may look like you have fallen off God's radar, it may look like he can't hear you or worse he has stopped listening. But things aren't always as they seem.

listen to what King Darius said about Daniel's God:
vs 27" He rescues and saves his people; he performs miraculous signs and wonders in the heavens and on the earth."

Guess what, that is your God too, the God of Daniel is your God too!!
things aren't always as they seem, he sees you, he loves you and he is coming to get you out and set you up!!
This year resolve in your heart to believe and trust in him 100%


HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

He spoke to me then...

When the dark cloud closes in
HAVE FAITH
When all around you speaks a loss not a win
HAVE FAITH
When your tears ever flow before his throne
HAVE FAITH
When you feel abandoned like he's left you on your own
HAVE FAITH
When questions abound more than answers
HAVE FAITH
When others are celebrating and you're still waiting it out
HAVE FAITH
When all he tells you is what you can't do
HAVE FAITH
....
Remember the grave and the Resurrection?
SO JUST HAVE FAITH.

Giving Thanks:

For God has said: 'I will never, never, fail you or forsake you'
Hebrews 13:5

Heavenly father I thank you for this promise, for being a God who would never fail me. For being a God I can rely on. I thank you Daddy because your word says that even in my unfaithfulness you remain faithful. I thank you for loving me with an unconditional love, david said he would 'Hope in your unfailing love'.

Father Today I hope in your unfailing love, it is because you love me that I would not be consumed, it because you love me that you will supply all my needs according to your riches in glory. it is because you love me that anything I ask in your name you will do for me in accordance with your will for my life.
daddy thank you for having a plan for my life. a plan that is of good and not evil. thank you for my end is greater than my beginning! yes, Lord thank you for the interest you have in my well being.

I thank you Lord for who you are, for it is because of who you are that I am victorious and I have hope for more victories.
Accept my heartfelt thanks in Jesus name.
Amen.

What are YOU thankful for?

My Psalm

Your Love For Me dey KOKOROKO.

THANK YOU JESUS.

DON'T KNOW WHY, BUT THANK YOU!

The Truth 2

When you look at your life
Comparing it to No one's
You will find that
You're truly blest:
You're satisfied.

The Evolution

Swimming against the current;
Loving when I should Despise,
Giving when I should Withhold
Being there when I should be absent
Forgiving even before being asked to.
Embracing Integrity even when it would cost me.

Swimming against the current of my Humanness
Swimming against the current of my Unrefined Self
This is what it means to grow,
when one swims against the current that wrestles with their Soul.

T.M (C)

The Truth

I pondered on a thought that lead to this personal realization, to my truth:

I do not pursue a relationship with God because I am perfect,

I seek Him because I am in need of Perfecting.

After all those who are well have no need for the Physician.
Matt9:12

Selah

"So don't be afraid little flock. For it gives your Father

GREAT HAPPINESS

to give you the Kingdom."

Luke 12:32

You won't be hungry for much longer...

Epilogue

Thank God for everything; I am here again by the grace of God, I keep taking long breaks whenever I go to NIgeria its about time someone asked me 'whats up with that?' anyway God willing no disappearing act, and by his grace messages that would inspire and bless ME.. and then you. Me first because I too need to be taught, be feed by him, and it is what he graciously gives me that i can share.

Summer was a testimony, hiccups here and there, but God was faithful and gracious none the less. I am in my final year @ Uni!! thank you Lord, never thought it would come so soon, so much to be done... His grace is sufficient.

Anyway hope y'all have been well,

Believer I don't know when my first post would be, but hopefully a word comes soon.
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"This was God's plan which he had made long ago; he knew all this would happen." Acts 2:23

Ever wondered 'why is this happening to me?'; ever asked "God if you knew I will face this why did you let it?' sometimes these BIG questions get a silence from God, not that he has ignored you or that he has not heard your query, or your tears, but because There is a Plan. There is a Plan. The book of Jeremiah 29:11 says God has a plan for you and I; a plan for GOOD and not for EVIL.
The plan may not have been for things to get to tangled up and murky but the murky and the tangled up must surrender to the plan of God.

I am never prepared for a lot of the 'all that happen', but Acts 2:23 says "He knew...'
I am not prepared for this battle, this mountain, but God not only knew there would be this challenge, he knew I would not be ready for it because there was no way of me seeing it before hand.
No one likes to be taken unawares, someone drops by to visit without informing you they were coming or that they had no intention of leaving your home that day, such little things get most of us all worked up and bothered, How much more the BIG things, when life happens, when people leave, when you come face to face with your imperfection or fallibleness, what do we do when the unexpected happens? what do I do? I cry and agonize, and query God... and take a large dose of self-pity.
But;

what CAN I do when the unexpected happens? what CAN you do?
we can claim the Peace of God, claim his strength and divine ability.

we can remind ourselves that it is not about us, never, but it is about God, the devil won't bother with you if you didn't have God on your side, that is why God said the 'Battle is His.'

when we are faced with the unexpected, Act 2:23 encourages us to relax, God is prepared to see us through it, one day at a time, one step at a time.
His peace.

Chichi

surviving on grace

A psalm of Chichi:

"You're my home:
The rain falls wildly
I am broken in my spirit
Lord, you are my home: the place where my soul is free to groan.
Companions fly away
Alone in my despair
Lord, you are my home: the place where i am free to be silent, allowed to have no answers.
The world a cruel, cruel place
Fighting constantly against a finished race
my God, you are my home: Now I posses the heritage of victors
For you are all I have
For you declare you are all I need
Here I am expecting not because I am deserving
here I am believing as a key to my receiving
In need of strengthening, in need of uplifting
In you I long to encase myself
to stay covered and sheltered
for you are my home:MY PLACE OF SAFTEY AND ETERNAL SECURITY."

Ps 46:1 "God is our refuge and strength ALWAYS ready to help in times of trouble." (NLT)

keep surviving on grace. chichi

And it came to me

When he whispers my name
my soul refuses to answer
as I wallow in the gutter of my mistakes.

when he whispers my name
I am broken that I he still remembers
even with all my blunders
my name lies over his heart unerased.

when he whispers my name
I shout out "forget me."
I caution him "not to love me."
because such faith and love upon me a risk.

when he whispers my name
I stand in awe and shudder,
tears of thankfullness flow, at the thought that my wrongs he can forgive.

when he whispers your name
don't refuse for too long
do embrace what he is giving: Another chance to claim his grace.


keep surviving on grace. chichi

happy birthday to me!!

so its my birthday today YAY! and i do thank God for every thing this past year even the seemingly unpleasant why? because his word tells me ALL things are working together for my good!


anyway i decided to do something different with this post. just put down some things about me. rather random. but any way here it goes:



• I am a mummy’s baby. And I don’t mind that at all.

• I am not the last born but I am the baby of the house , Everyone ‘babies’ me. I’m so loved.

• I love to write. It is what I do, who I am…

• I am not perfect. Used to think I could be. Still struggle with that but I am learning to accept and to appreciate what grace means.

• I love God. My relationship could be better than what it is now; he will get us there no doubt. I once loved God because of family, but now I love him personally. He does well by me.

• I do not like receiving letters. Anything in a sealed envelope white, brown… I just do not appreciate the suspense of sealed envelopes. Send me an email thank you very much.

• I like ‘me time’ a lot. A lot more than the average person (I think). Sometimes it is based on choice, circumstances or force of habit.


• I love to read. Almost anything in fact.

• I love music. Music inspires me especially the gospel ones; it is an atmosphere I create for myself. The (b) part of this is that I love to start my day with some gospel jamz playing in the back-ground as I get ready.

• I think my voice sounds like a little girl. Only on phone though.

• I am not good at ironing! I do iron but because I am not excellent its my least favourite thing to do.



so there it is.

keep surviving on grace. chichi

I know how it ends

Lord I give you thanks, even though i can be silent, and lament, i choose to give you thanks, remembering all the glorious things you have done for me:

-you forgive ALL my sins
_ you heal me ALWAYS
-you have ransomed me from hell.
-you fill my life with GOOD things
-you renew my strength
-you give me justice
-you reveal your nature and plan to me.

above all Lord, I thank you because I am surrounded on everyside by GRACE!

i need it, you give it, I thank you.

"Be strong in the Lord and be of good courage. since I was young and now i am old i have not seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging for bread. He who called you is faithful and will complete the good work he has begun in you."

keep surviving on grace. chichi

the roar of a lion... the cowardice of an ostrich

I wish i could claim that everyday i felt like getting out of bed. i wish i could claim that i looked forward to going to sleep each night. of recent sleeping time has become a period of staying up late into the night fretting about this, about that. o boy do i wish i could claim to have it figured out, that i walk on water 24/7, 365... i wish i could say that whenever i think about my future i have 100% faith that everything i desire will come through.

i wish i could say that i lived perfectly grace or no grace. that if you watched me every day that there will be nothing contradictory about what i believe and how i live. but i can't so i won't.

I am not perfect i am far from it, not fit to teach but in need of schooling. it all gets too much and complex and I wish i could just disappear from earth and be with God in heaven and not have to deal with life,mistakes, people etc... and then i feel bad for wanting 'death' in those moments. until today, until today; i came across this verse in the bible:
philpians 1 vs 21-24: paul too wanted out, go read it yourself this aint no blasphemy, paul wanted to live all the chains and struggles and go be with Christ '..for I long to go and be with Christ' Vs 23.

granted some of you out there never get weak, weary, some of you out there have never wanted to just quit and run to heaven... well, good for you guys I sure wish I had a dose of whatever God put inside of you.

somedays i roar like a lion, other days i bury my face in the sand too afraid... longing to go and be with Christ. but his strength is made manifest in my weakness.

and the same holds true for you. its okay to want to run and hide, if it wasn't why would we need a saviour in the first place? why would Christ offer to take our burdens if we never had one in the first place.

'Jesus is the cure for a weary soul'. I am so weary so i go to him, my dear why don't you do the same.

his peace. my love. chichi.

p.s: this is my last post for a while. stay blest. x

imagine me...

I just can’t stand …
Her beauty my ugliness
Her righteousness my shame
Her peace my burdens
Her laughter my tears
Her openness my fear of letting go
Her faith my doubts
But he still loves me I am not her and he doesn’t mind at all
In my ugliness he sees beauty
He gave me his righteousness
Took my burdens and gave his peace
Enjoys my laughter and wipes my tears
Wants to hear my heart, he wants me free from fears
He has given me a measure of faith and even when it feels as small as a mustard seed most times … it still moves mountains
I am not her but he stands beside me now, always, forever.

God doesn't compare us with anyone- so if you're anything like me i've got 3 words for you:

break the habit!!

his love and peace. chichi

lyrics

thank you for the sunlight
i no longer have to fight
for now you give me rest
for now all is well
and whenever the sea may churn


Lord you will see me through
because you never change
as you did yesterday so you will do today.



i cry each time i remember
how sad i used to be
how misery and depression
never let me see

all that you were doing
all that you had given

to go through the night
and wake up to your light.

my faithlessness could not keep you bound.
my lord i bow before your throne
my foolishness did not make you turn away
you saved me.... Lord you saved me.




i look at the days ahead
and i smile in my heart
because lord, you have made things right again.

because you answer prayers Lord i will pray
and i will by grace trust you through my pain.




Today is a new begining for me-thank you-
i can dream of a 'happy-ending'
Lord you saved a soul, i hope you know.
my soul forever thanks you.





and when darkness falls on my world;
Jesus help me to say 'thy will be done.'
holy spirit teach me to be stay strong-
and I know I will come out of the storm

full of Joy because I overcome.


-TISCHIONI MOORE-



"we are often troubled but not crushed, sometimes in doubt but never in dispair, there are many enemies but we are never without a FRIEND, though badly hurt atimes never destroyed."

his peace. chichi

thankful

Now that I am here:

Here with you,

Now that I am here:

Having reached a place of self acceptance,

Now that I am here:

Laughing so loud, and smiling late into the night,

Now that I am here:

Re-Awakening the dreamer in me,

Now that I am here:

Assured and at rest…

Finally I am where I want to be… though my journey and aspiration is incomplete but because today has come, I know tomorrow is assured.



Thank you Jesus.